Hi! My name is Ruby Karp and this is my website. I’ve decided that, instead of a starting a podcast, I’m starting a blog (which is actually the podcast equivalent of 2011).
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about change. I’m 20, and don’t identify with the person I was 1 year ago. When I run into old friends, I feel so bad, like, you knew me when I was that? My apologies!!! I guess everyone is ashamed of who they used to be, a version of themselves they’ve left in the past. I try not to think about it; my many mental health issues that weren’t being dealt with properly, how I projected onto everything and everyone, how I wanted so deeply to be liked, to be acknowledged. I was devoted to discovering these things- learning how to be the best version of me. A few years later, I have a better understanding of myself, my emotions, my self esteem.
So, what now?
Where do we go after teen angst- after we’ve had our rebellions, worked out our feelings, left our homes for the first time. High school was about staying around long enough to make it out alive. Post high school, though, is different. College, or being a highschool graduate- is a beginning. There aren’t any more requirements (other than to survive). We do not have to wake up at 8:00AM. We do not have to be around the same 100~ people everyday. We control change. Until that control is out of our hands (hey, global pandemic!)
I am a planner. I’ve had my life planned out and most of the time, I stick to that plan. So, my main job, stand up comedy, being taken away from me- that was not part of the plan. And so, we come back to our theme- change. How do I continue on without my thing? I do what I did in high school, what I do now, what I will be doing my whole life- I adapt to survive.
So, this is me adapting.
If you’ve read my book (which, please don’t feel obligated to but also… please do), you’ll know that I *love* giving unsolicited advice, on topics I don’t fully understand. And so, that is what I will be doing here. Writing about experiences I have a minuet perspective on, in the moment, trying to help somebody somewhere. If you’ve got a problem, I want to hear it. And this time, for free!!! Hahahaha I’m so broke
So… welcome! Submit questions and I’ll give you answers. (submit https://rubykarp.com/contact/ here!) I hope I commit to this. I’ll post weekly (or if I’m going through it… probably every few days but those will just be me projecting).